I stay awake in fear you may dance among the demons in my dreams...

i wander out into the cold
with no shoes and no coat
exposing my heart to the winter

the frozen grass pokes at my feet
as i make my way to the moon
so bright my tears glisten

the wind echoes in my ears
and the snowflakes leaves traces on my skin
as my lungs constrict and my breathing slows

take me as i am
love my past, my present and my future
dance with me amungst the stars

she always told me

“fall in love with moments dear”

                and I never quite knew what she meant

until tonight

it wasn’t when you leaned down

   to touch your lips to mine

it wasn’t the warmth of your body

   leaning against me

it wasn’t the feeling of safety

   wrapped in your arms

it was when your hand

gently touched my cheek

as our lips connected

and my heart skipped a beat

i fell in love with that moment

knowing

no one will ever want anything

more than I want you

As I’ve gotten older, one of the scariest things to me is being attached to someone. You turn your life upside to spend time with them. You get to know them. You find yourself knowing their favorite football team, food, types of music, color. You start to discover their flaws and get to know what they are truly good at. As time goes on, you continue to learn about them… you absorb every detail of each moment you spend with them without even knowing it. And one day you look at this person and you realize that they are your world… you realize how much they mean to you. And you realize you love all their strengths and you love all their weaknesses. They make you feel warm and secure. But most of all, they make you happy. And to bring happiness to someone in such a way is a strong and powerful thing. It literally can break a person… completely. Some argue that love is not real or that people who fall in love are trying to live a fairy tale. I say people who fall in love are brave, incredibly brave. It takes someone with intense courage to give someone else their entire heart…

Even though we knew each other once before

After so many years of not seeing you

I don’t know how you feel so familiar to me

Or why it feels less like I am getting to know you again

And more as though I am just remembering who you are

How every smile, every whisper

Brings me to the conclusion

That deep down I know you

Maybe my soul loved your soul before

In another time

A different place

Some other existence…