for such a simple Hello
it was a complicated Goodbye

Blue

i pulled the dress out of my closet

       (still on the hanger)

and twirled around in my bedroom

some soft love ballad playing in the background

the blue fabric flowing through the air

i stopped in front of the mirror and held the dress up to my body

                the smile on my face faded

                as I remembered the first time I wore this dress

                hand in hand with you

                my best friend’s wedding rehearsal

                pictures with you

                you told my mom you wanted to marry me that night

i walked back to my closet and put the dress away

       (i’ll wear something different)

Anger

Those who know me know that I am not an angry person. It is not an emotion I commonly convey and definitely never show...

But today I am angry.
In fact, for the past few days - that's all I've felt.

ANGER: a strong feeling of being upset or annoyed because of something wrong or bad.

Upset or annoyed?

How about...
Infuriated, Maddened, Outraged, Irate, Livid, Furious

Like a raging fire
Like a black sky
Like a thunderstorm

Who I am becoming
Who have you turned me in to

somebody i used to know

So let's ignore the feelings
Pretend we're over it
But deep down
Know it wasn't supposed to end this way...

My memory loves you...

It asks about you all the time -

discounted

finding an item at the grocery store that expires the next day
a rack full of clothes that are all XXS or XXL
candy leftover from the last holiday
the stitching is a little off
a hole that anyone can fix
your name spelled wrong

or

our relationship