here i am again

dear self,

you tried to change didn't you?
closed your mouth a little more
tried to be softer
prettier
less needy, less alive
so you could fit his mold
but even when you were sleeping
you could feel him traveling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love?
reach inside and steal his heart
you can't make homes out of human beings
i wish you knew that
i wish you wouldn't have placed your whole soul in his hands
i'm sorry he wants to leave
but let him leave

you are talented, terrifying
strange and exceptionally beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love

-(my version of a quote by: Warsan Shire)