i remember the day we decided we were over
i remember there were no tears in your eyes
and laying next to you knowing you were leaving
feeling like my whole life was a lie

i wish i could pick up all the pieces
and carefully stitch them back together
but i can't seem to escape all the memories
both the good times & the pain i had to weather

you changed my heart, my mind, my courage
i surrounded myself with a wall of stone
a brick for each tear you let fall down my face
and a fear that without you i'll forever be alone

I tried not to think about  this
not to write about it
not to sing about
but it seems impossible

Impossible that 1 year and 6 days ago
You let me walk out of your life

just like that
There were no real goodbyes
No real reasons or apologies
It was empty
It was pain

I've been through a lot of heartache in my life

But I've never felt as broken
As small
As forgotten
As you made me feel

And then time after time
you broke my heart
My soul
My entire being
Over
   And over
          And over

Again

but still today
Trying my best to be strong
Knowing I'm not your happy

I feel the sting of guilt
The worry of hurt
And curiosity of how you are

i let tears fall
when you were right beside me

i let my body
sink into yours
so close it was like we were one

i ran my hands through your hair

i tickled your face with my fingertips

i closed my mouth
and spoke to you in a hundred silent ways

I may have broke my own heart loving you...

And I wonder if you check to see if the doors unlocked