someone

i haven't had a night like this in a long time
a night where i've cried so much and so hard for so long
that the world no longer has sound
and my eyelids are too heavy to open

the only thing reassuring me that i'm alive
is that i can feel the pressure of my puppy
laying next to me


        i want you to feel like it is a privilege to love me
        like i only get more beautiful the longer you stare
        i want to be loved deeply
        i want you to feel like there is nothing better
                    absolutely nothing
        i want you to feel like the world would be worthless without "us"
        i want you to love me
        god, i want you to love me
        i want you to feel lucky to love me
        i want you to need me
                     every moment of every day, for the rest of forever
        i just want you to love me
        truly love me

        like i am falling in love with you


cuz the world is heartless
and there is pain and heartache at every corner

and those who love so deeply
usually get cut the deepest

and i've decided i don't need to mean something to everyone
but i do need to mean everything to someone