Remember that day? When you leaned in and kissed me? The day you changed my whole world.

What about that night when we couldn’t hold back from each other any longer…

Or watching the moon and how you held me so tight because I was freezing…

Do you remember that feeling that made you come see me even though you had to sneak in?

Remember my birthday? Your birthday?

Remember watching the sunset? The promise?

I remember. I remember it all and I think about it often. I remember loving you like I’ve never loved anyone before. I remember wanting every part of you – good and bad. And I remember letting fear creep in my heart. I remember letting other people get in my head. I remember convincing myself that we weren’t right for each other.

And I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for not treating you always like the rare gem you really are. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry for letting you go instead of talking through my feelings.

I never meant to break your heart. I never meant to push you away. I never meant to give myself the loneliness I had before you came.

I apologize for my insecurities. I apologize for wondering if someone could make you happier than I could. I know I am difficult. I know who I am is a lot to handle.

Mostly, I am sorry that you may not know I’ll never be anything but grateful for every moment spent with you.