I spent a lot of time
Searching for affection
In shallow places

I gave people bits of me
They didn’t deserve
And I let myself be hurt
Because that’s what
I thought I deserved

Then I met you

It took some time
But I finally let go
I stopped trying to fit a circle
In a square hole
After some time
I let go of all that hate
I secretly felt in the depths of my being
I pushed away the pain
That decorated my heart

Because you were worth it

And in that moment
When I knew it was you
Only you that mattered
That I’d do anything for you
I loved you
God, I loved you

You draped my heart in black
Once again

And through my tears
I realized
This is what I deserve

This is what I’ve always deserved