promises

i made some promises
and i've worked hard to keep them
      that's all i can do for you now

'always be my friend' you asked
then threw me away like nothing
standing alone in the cold
     like i am used to
     but never expected from you

'dig deep and let go'
this promise is against my very soul
i feel
i love
and i don't turn my back on people
i'll be there for anyone who needs me
this does not make me a bad person
this does not mean i cannot love someone else
i dug deep
i'm over what you were asking me to get over
but i'm not the type to let go
and i won't let you go either

how can a girl believe in herself
when no one else does
how can someone respect themselves
when no one else does
       especially when the person who means the most doesn't

i made some promises
and i've done my best

i've tried to find it in my heart
to believe things happen for a reason
to hope that you did actually once care
to wish that you would've taken that road with me
      to be the hero i thought you were
      to actually fight for me the way you promised to
     
you made some promises too
and you broke every single one of them